While the end of the year is the most beautiful of all; Sometimes, it brings along melancholy, a feeling that the whole year has gone by and you haven’t done anything significant. Maybe there are many resolutions still undone on your list. It can feel heavy and uninspiring.
2019 has been an overwhelming and in-comprehensive year.
Believe it or not, you have had many learning experiences in 2019. It may not be as great you thought, but you moved ahead.
I have a bad habit of rushing things. Until I don’t get the prominent things on my list done, I feel as if I haven’t done anything.
If I look back, on the surface, nothing really changed. But, if I look again and be more thoughtful, then a lot of things did.
(I’ll have to check my phone, for the record it has maintained during 2019)
I think that was a bad idea, as I could only find pics of various weddings I attended this year.
Let’s try again.
I shifted to a healthier lifestyle, I am now more aware of the nutrition my body needs.
Before this, I was more concerned about calories and maintaining weight; But now, I am more thoughtful about nutrition intake because I can see a shift in energy levels and overall health.
I started working on TMD Storyteller and Citta Space.
These two projects took most of the time of 2019. TMD Storyteller is a production house that brings life to the stories by turning them into movies, and Città Space is an initiative we started to promote wellbeing by yoga and meditation.
Next, I met amazing people and learned a little more about life.
It is amazing how every person you meet leaves some impact on you and alters the way you see life. To me, every person is a lesson and a part of our reflection. I met this amazing mother who works hard for herself and also focuses on the acting career of her two kids, and she has just started a new business, hats off to the time management skills. I met people who made me want to read more, learn more and express myself in different ways.
Felt super confident, doubtful, anxious and confident again.
Questioned my decisions, worried about the future, thought I will never get out of this, found serenity and balance again.
It was a rollercoaster, I have always been socially anxious and I do not enjoy public gatherings as much until they are with the people that I adore. Well in 2017, I learned that it is fun to meet new people and learn about their lives. But, when it comes to large gatherings and parties, I always have a hard time making the small talk, and this year was all about that because of WEDDINGS!!!! And, I felt as if I have no time for myself because of all this. Also, the project at my office was time-consuming and challenging. I started using a second bullet journal (I have two now), which makes it much simpler to get my mind together.
I decided to not be so hard on myself regarding timelines.
Had my highs and my lows like everyone else. This year was beautiful, and as it is ending, it is teaching me something new,
A new way of letting things go.
Each year brings its lessons, and to make space for the new ones, we have to let go of the things which are not serving us anymore. Feeling pain is part of my life, but holding on to that is a choice.
One thing that I am doing this year is, letting go of all the self-doubt, worries, and resentment I held on to this year, let New year bring the new ones (>_<).
It is not that the next year will be free of worries and hurt, but I will be happier with the new ones instead of digging up for the older ones. We can’t go much further emotionally without addressing the things which are still bothering us from the past. As it always the same lesson wrapped in a different color than before.
There are a few resolutions that I am still working on, and I will have to move them to 2020, but I am closer than I was before.
Rather than giving myself a timestamp of getting things done, I am working towards a more sustainable way of doing things. Where I can stay consistent and healthily work on my goals, not under the pressure of time is running out.
If you feel that you have been missed this year completely, or got nothing done, take a good look, you might have received things or lessons to help you through it.
